Let me get this off my chest… Part 1

Apparently my blog posts have focused on certain themes lately which seem to be dating, breaking up, and my ex boyfriend.  So, I figured I would take one or two posts to lay my emotions out on the table in an effort to help me get over him and make peace with everything. Please bear with me because this is a bit long but I feel it is necessary.  Maybe I will even help somebody in the process.

My last break up hit me really hard and it has taken a long time to process and work through the feelings felt.  To be quite frank I am not over him and by this point in time it should be a thing of the past.  For some reason I miss him and memories we had in our relationship.  I know he has moved on because the day we broke up (New Years Eve morning btw) he completely cut contact with me.  I even attempted to wish him a Happy New Year and got no response.  That stung that after a year he just cut me out with no thought at all.  It is like he threw everything we had together, crumpled it up, and threw it in the trash. Talk about being hurt so much and I am still hurting which sucks.

The break up was difficult  for me and  broke my heart.  It hurt more than any other break I have had.  What hurt the most was when he admitted he would not fight for our relationship, he could not break up with me in person because it would hurt him too much to see my face ( he was being a pussy we together for a year and he could not even break up with me in person which I deserved), he said we thought differently, and that I hurt him more than anyone had in his life and he would not be able to get over this.

Short story  is that he was not a good communicator and I tried to work out things that were bothering me to his answers of that he is happy.  After the holidays I blew up at him because I just was frustrated and it wasn’t planned it just happened.  I told him I was sorry and he texted saying he wanted to try to resolve things with me.  Then the next morning I called him to work things out and he broke up with me.  It sucks and it felt like I was sucker punched in the gut and chest.  Basically we both got hurt and it is terrible.

That us how our relationship ended in one long phone call where he said he likes me a lot, a lot, a lot but wouldn’t fight for us because we think differently and that would cause problems in our future.  The thinking differently would cause “the ugly beast to rear its head” his exact wording which in my mind refers to his difficulty in communication and his inability to want to solve problems when issues would arrive in our  relationship.

My ex was not a bad guy and was a gentleman.  We did have to work on certain things in our relationship to help it become even stronger: communication (both of us), prioritization and effort (him), talking about emotions (him), talking about intimacy (me & him).  Those were most of the difficulties  we had and some of the things he would not budge on like communicating with me, and it caused tension.  For me priority and effort were big things that need to be present in order to make the relationship work.  He would not budge on certain things.  When I am the one doing all of the commuting in the relationship there is a problem.  That is one sided and problems can not be fixed that way.  But enough about the issues for now because I am going to focus on the positive characteristics her possessed and save the difficult spots for another post.

The good things that came out of my last relationship are qualities that I will look for in another man.  The positive qualities my ex had are fantastic and any woman should look for them int heir significant other.

Good Qualities in Significant Other

-When picking a woman up get out of the car and walk up to her door instead of texting her that you are outside

-Open the doors for you and others

-Always make sure she gets home safe

-Be selfless at times and do things that she is interested in even though you might dislike or it will be out of your comfort zone.

-Make her feel like she is a part of your life by introducing you to family and friends

-Initiate and plan dates throughout the relationship and not just in the beginning stages

-Be respectful to everyone

-Make an effort to meet and be interested in your partners their friends and family

-Be punctual on your dates and if you are running late have the courtesy to call

-Good morning texts and good night texts mean a lot

-Showing affection in public

-Forehead kisses are the best

-Keeping each other updated about your life is important and do it on the daily

-No secrets and I repeat no secrets unless you want everything to fall apart

-Honesty about everything even if it hurts.  This avoids tons of problems

-Cuddling on the couch while watching your favorite Netlix or TV show

-Be in contact with each other daily

-Be willing to support each other through thick and thin

-Show appreciation for each other every day and not just on special occasions

These are just some things that should be present in a successful relationship and positive qualities that good men should display.

Please bear with me because there will be more to come on this and it is Part 2 about issues that can cause the demise of a relationship even if one or both partners exhibit the qualities above.

What are some tips and tricks that helped you get over a break up?  Has there been a relationship that you have not been able to forget or get over?