Ominous Online Dating

Dating has really gotten burdensome to me lately. Since my last relationship I have had no luck whatsoever and it sucks. I mean I have gone on dates but rarely has it passed beyond the first date. It has been so disheartening. It is like the universe is sending me signs that I am destined to be single the rest of my days.  That is not true but it feels like that right now.  I mean how many guys do I have to date to find my most compatible man?  At the rate I am going I will be alone for quite a long while.

My lackluster dating life must be the universe telling me that I need to work on myself or that I should take break from dating.   The guys I have been chatting with have not been impressive.  They seem to just be after sex or ghost you in the middle of the conversation.  I jumped into the online dating world full force after my last relationship ended and when all of my friends have been in successful relationships  It is so hard to be the only single one or constantly searching for love.  Maybe this is the time to truly narrow down what I am looking for in partner and to fix the shortcomings of myself.

 

 

All I want is the love like some of my friends have in their relationships.  I want someone to choose me everyday, prioritize me, and spend quality time with me.  I want to find someone who compliments me and just helps make my life better.  The most important test is when we hit bumps in the road during a relationship.  Like my parens say:  “When something is broke you fix and you do not throw it away”.  They have had fights ver the years and have always fixed things and made things work.  They never gave up on their relationship due something that was temporary.  That is the relationship that I want.  The image below has things that I want in a relationship!  The things below will help a relationship be strong and last.

 

 

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Weekly Wonders Lush Edition

I was fed up with my usual night and morning routine face cleanser. I needed a change and went to the local Lush store to see what goodies they had. My skin was in a funk and in need of a change in products and figured to go more natural and find products that wouldn’t disrupt my skin.  Here are the products that I found.*This post is NOT sponsored by Lush and I am not affiliated with Lush in any capacity.  All opinions are my own and I love share products that I have tried with my readers.

9 to 5 Cleansing Lotion

This is an easy breezy cleansing lotion that also removes makeup.  I enjoy using this product because it is convieniet and leaves my skin feeling refreshed after I use it.  Also, it is fantastic at removing makeup too!.  There is no need for makeup wipes anymore.  This lotion smells nice and my skin is not irritated by this product.  I have been using it for two weeks now and I am in love with it.  I threw out the remainder of my old facial lotion.  This is great for the busy college student or working professional.

Mask of Magnaminty

This body and facial scrub smells so good and works just as well!  I do not use this often usually when my skin is really having a bad day.  This helps soothe and calm mt skin when it is red or when I have acne.  The best part is that it smells amazing!  I love the smell of mint because it is so refreshing!  Try this scrub out!

Cup O’ Coffee

This is another amazing smelling scrub.  I like the smell of this one better than the Mask of Magnaminty.  This scrub essential works the same way as the magnaminty mask it just smells differently. It leaves your skin feelings refreshed and rejuvenated.  This mask helps liven up the skin and will make it look and feel better.  Coffee is one of my favorite things to drink and this product smells just like the perfect cup of jo.

Chocolate Lip Scrub

Over the years I have neglected the care of my lips.  Since I live in the South and the sun is a lot stronger than up North I have decided to care for my lips as well.  I use this twice a week and it is amazing.  It cleanses m lips and removes the head skin that has accumulated.  The best part is you can lick off the excess scrub because this product is natural.  It smells and tastes like chocolate and I love it!  This product will help my lips stay healthy during the hot summer months.

Ambrosia Shaving Cream

This is the first shaving product that I have used from Lush.  I usually use Barbasol or SKintimate shaving cream but my legs kept getting irritated from some ingredients in the shaving cream.  I decided that I had enough and I could not stand the itchy bumps that formed after I used the the other shaving creams.  I picked out this shaving cream from Lush to help with the irritation.  This cream has totally helped with the irritation but I do not love it.  I need a lot of product to cover my legs and it wastes so much of the product.  On the bright side my legs have not been irritated.  When this product runs out I will try another shaving cream from Lush and let you know how it works.

Products to Try

Shower Jelly

This product looks awesome!  It comes in a variety of scents, colors, and just looks like a fun product.  It is different than what is out there and it is made by Lush so you know it is good quality!  Pines and Needles looks like an amazing smelling jelly.  I love a woodsy or piny scent because it reminds me of Christmas trees.  But sadly this scent is not going to be produced anymore so that Lush can make room for new products.  I will get one before it goes and also look into its new scents and colors.

The Olive Branch Shower Gel

I came cross this product while searching the web for some good Lush products.  This is looks interesting and moisturizing.  The reviews on the Lush website are great.  When I run out of my current shower gel I will need to try this one.

What Lush products do you love?  What are your thoughts of the ones that I have used? Any recommendations of Kush product that I should try out?

 

 

 

Pub Crawl Revelations

So, last weekend some friends and I went to a bar crawl around my neighborhood.  It was fun and I had an absolute blast!  However, I was not expecting things to get deep and revelational with my friends.  It could have been the alcohol talking but what they said and topics they touched upon hit a nerve with me.  The convo focused on a topic that I did not want to focus on but was probably meant to be focused of on that day: relationships.  It was one of those things that just seemed to happen at the right time under completely odd circumstances.  So let me not leave you hanging and dive into what the pub-crawl and alcohol my friend’s consumed reveal.  Like the saying goes the only honest people are children and drunks.

Relationships

Some friends at the pub crawl are in either new or long term relationships.  So, of course we talk about relationships and guys.  I mention how I am single, looking for a compatible man, exes, and what makes a good relationship.  I was saying how I wish that I was in a relationship because most of my friends are in long term relationships, engaged, or married.  For me it is frustrating to see others find a good companion and I am struggling to even get dates.  It is like I want to give up and just be single for the rest of my life.  I  know the former statement is totally ridiculous but at this rate I am batting zero.

One of my friends who is in a long term relationship and getting ready to move in with her boyfriend basically vented and said things that I didn’t want to hear and never thought about.  She was a bit drunk so it could be the alcohol talking but she basically said that I am lucky to be single.  My jaw nearly hit the floor.  She said that I was lucky because I was able to do what I wanted and go wherever I please without worrying about a significant other.  She said that couples and relationships can seem perfect from the outside but you do not know what things are like behind closed doors or what is not shown on social media. She gave up certain things for her relationship like going out with friends on weekends, certain freedoms, hanging out with just her friends or family.  She has to accommodate her boyfriend and deal with some people she didn’t like or she could not just go out by herself sometimes or felt guilty when she did.  Basically, she said that I should not rush or wish that I was in a serious relationship because you do not know the sacrifices people make and ultimately give up certain freedoms you have when you are single.  SO, guess I realized that maybe not all couples are truly happy and that some people stay in unsatisfying relationships due to societal or family pressures or to keep up with the Jonses.  Also, my friend maybe was being for than a bit honest because she was drunk and possibly not fully happy in her current relationship.

For now I am single and will continue to search for a man that is my perfect fit.  I mean there is a little part of me that wants to experience the love that my friends are experiencing.  That is what I want right now is love and companionship.

The Law of Attraction

No, this has nothing to do with attracting guys.  I had a feeling you would be thinking that based on the above section.  This had to do with a more philosophical approach to life and thoughts. is the belief that by focusing on positive or negative thoughts a person brings positive or negative experiences into their life. The simple version of this is that we attract whatever we think about good or bad.

My friends basically told me instead of comparing myself to my non-single friends and wishing I had what they had I should be happy for them, I should change my way of thinking about seeking a relationship and how I feel about others relationships.  If I bring out positive vibes about those topics then positive vibes will come back to me.  This positive thinking applies to every thing in life.  Basically this was a wake up call to me and that I need to start viewing things in a more positive light and get a little happier.  I should not envy what people have or what type of relationships they are in.  Instead I should be supportive and happy for them and wish them the best and that their relationship flourishes.  This was an awesome conversation I had with some of my friends and one that was surely uncommon to be discussed int he middle of a bar with drunkards all around.  I have realized that septimes good and needed things happen in the most unusual places.  This was one of those times and it was a conversation that has impacted me for the better.  But that is some serious stuff going on at the bar.

 

The above topics and conversations helped make the bar crawl very memorable.  If this is what the first one looks like then I can’t imagine hat the next pub-crawl will look like.  I am so excited to see what happens anss what things we talk about next.

 

 

 

Lip Loving

Recently I have been obsess with a variety of lip colors  and wanted to explore different colors and new brands.

Clinique Chubby Stick Moisturizing Lip Colour Balm in Mega Melon

 

This is the perfect summertime color!  I have loved using this lip product so far!  It adds a natural pop of color to my lips and can go with any outfit or with a night and day makeup look.  The variety of colors are amazing and I going to purchase more colors.  If you have any color recommendations let me know.  This is my new favorite lip product!  I can not wait to go and purchase new colors!

Bobbi Brown: Blue Raspberry

This is my favorite lipstick of all time!  I love it and have been using since college.  I love this color and it is such a classic.  One day I would like to get more colors from Bobbi Brown but for now I am set on this shade.  This is my go to shade an a classic one at that.  I love it and it has been in my makeup bag for the past few years!  A classic staple that will never fade.

Urban Decay: Sheer Liar

This is another lip product that I have been using on the regular now and I enjoy the color it adds to my lips and makeup routine.  I do not like how little it lasts.  It does not last long and fades rather quickly.  If you are looking for a color that stays the whole day then this is not the product for you.  I do like the natural look that this product provides for me and it is not an intense color for me or my makeup routine.  I will be interested to try another natural color from them in the future.

Benefit They’re Real Double the Lip: Nude Scandal

This is pretty expensive but well worth the price!  I love this product and will definitely buy again once I am out of this product.  It is part lip liner and lipstick.  So the top part is the lip liner and the bottom is the lipstick.  You apply the lip liner first and then apply the lipstick.  The colors match my natural lips so it adds just the right amount of color.  I would not have know about this lip product if the Sephora employee did not recommend it to me.  So, kudos to her for knowing such a good product.

Burt’s Bees Lip Balms

I love, love, love these although sadly I have ruined way too many of them by leaving them in my pockets and they wound up washed and I had to throw them in the trash.  But these lip balms are amazing!  They keep my lips hydrated and most throughout the day plus they smell great which is a plus.  The price is a little bit much compared to regular chapstick but it is totally worth it!

Not so lovable Lip Products

L’Oreal Riche Lipstick: Tropical Coral

This brand is great but the color of this lipstick is not.  For some ladies this might be a complementing color but for me it is not.  It is way to bright for me and does not work for most of my outfits.  Maybe if I was more tan than this color would work better for me.  So, I will be trying another color from this brand to see if it works for me.

Sephora Collection: Sweet Balm

The packaging is very cute on this product but the the product itself is another story.  It does not offer a hint of color unless you apply like 4 coats of it.  Plus the color is very bright pink which is too much for me so I am not loving it at all.  For some people the color might work but me it is just too much and I look a bit ridiculous with all of that pink on my lips.  This has been one of the worst products that I have used in a long time and I am sorry that I bought it.

Lip Products to Try:

Bobbi Brown Crushed Lip Color

I want to try this lipstick so badly!  I am in love with Bobbi Brown products and will just have to get my hands on this lipstick.  the packaging is so cute! I like the new take on the lipstick tube compared to the traditional tube of the Bobbi Brown lipsticks. In the meantime I will have to read reviews about it before I purchase the item.  Have any of you used this products?  What do you think of them?

M.A.C Lipstick

I have not tried nay M.A.C lipsticks yet and have heard so many good things about these products.  Plus the lipstick tube is so cute. I know they are known for their reds but I am not a red person.  Anyone have any color recommendations for a natural color for fair skin?  Let me know in the comments below.

 

Let me know some of your favorite lip products in the comments below! 

 

Looking for Love in the Wrong Places

So, I think I am getting fed up with online dating.  It is getting more and more annoying. I am having difficulty finding anyone that I am interested in, am tired of men checking out in the middle of the conversation (aka ghosting), frustrated that my messages do not get responses, and am done with guys who are only looking for hook ups.  Online dating is a lot more work than being single.  It feels like it is a second job and you know what, it sucks big time!

I am looking to meet a man with whom I can connect with, we can learn about each other, and then we can begin a relationship.  The amount of of creepers and sleaze balls out there has really dampened my spirits about the world of online dating.  I guess that I have been looking for love in all the wrong places.

To make matters worse there are numerus people in my life who have recently met and connected with someone and are now in relationships or are getting engaged. They make the business of getting t know each other and entering a relationship look easy but here I am struggling and it is disheartening. It’s difficult to see people close to you start relationships, get engaged, or get married and here you are just trying to meet a man that is compatible with you.  I am excited for all of my friends having success in their relationships but I am wondering what is going so wrong for me.  I am putting myself out there, initiating conversations with men, and even suggesting getting coffee or an in person meeting.  I have even went on dates when men asked me out but usually after the first or second date it fizzles out.   All these other people make it look like a cake walk to meet men that are compatible with them.  Here I am putting myself out there to no avail and have not had anything progress.  I mean sometimes it is the man but other times I’m sure it is me.  I am at the point in life where I am comfortable with who I am.  I should not have to change or act a certain way to get someone to like me.  I am well past that point.  I just want to know what I am doing wrong that is keeping me in the single and undesirable zone.

All I want is to find a man and develop a connection with them that my friends have with their significant others.  Everyone else that I know has made it look easy and here I am struggling to keep my head above water looking for a man.  The only genuine connection that I have found so far was with my ex.  I would like a similar compatibility with someone else.  I know it will be different so no comparisons here.  I just want someone that I connect with on a the same level that I did with my ex.  I guess that I am looking for love in all the wrong places. I should heed the age old advice of you find what you are looking for when you stop looking for it. But I do find that as bad advice because it is like a sit an wait mentality and nothing is going to come knocking on your door.  You have to go seek it out and that is what I have been doing in this area of my life but it just hasn’t seemed to work out.

Maybe the below quote with  work out much better than the typical just sit and wait for love opinion


 

 

Let me Get this off my chest… Part 2

My last let me get this off my chest post focused on the difficulty I had getting over my break up and the positive qualities you should look for in a partner.  This post will be dedicated to things that can put wrenches or end a relationship. The issues I list below impacted my relationship and caused its doom.  These two posts are a way for me to process the events  of the break up, an attempt to finally get closure, and to help others struggling through a relationship or break up.

Qualities that can negatively impact a relationship.  Keep in mind every relationship is different and not all of these problems will be present in every relationship.

Value: Make sure that you and your partner value each other.  We both did in the beginning months of our relationship but for him it started to fade the longer we were together.  I kind of felt like he did not value me or my time the longer we dated.  It was a point of frustration for me and on this I should have made my voice heard more.  When I was commuting 45 minutes to his place every for the day (Sat or Sunday) every weekend then it was a problem.  It showed that he did not value me or my time.

Effort: This is a major reason our relationship collapsed.  I always put effort into our relationship. I would drive down to his town for the day or for a few hours just to see him and he would never come up to my area to see me or even give up one Friday night out with coworkers to spend time with me.  He would not put time in to planning dates and we eventually would just hang out at his house and watch Netflix and sports.  Over time I felt like I was constantly putting in effort and he was just coasting along through our relationship.  He just expected me to to all of the work and that is not ok.  Both parties should but all the effort they can into a relationship.

Priority:  This was another major issue in my last relationship.  I would put our relationship first and even gave up plans with my family the day after Christmas so that I could meet his aunt because I knew that was important to him.  In our relationship I would do whatever I could to be with him and he would not reciprocate.   This included me rearranging and giving up plans with family or friends so that I could be with him.  I would make sure that our relationship was one of my top priorities and he did not see things that way.  His priorities were family work, friends, sports, then our relationship.  Our relationship was dead last to him.  He basically fit me in when it was convenient or when it worked for him. I understand family and work  coming before a significant other but friends and sports should come secondary to a long term relationship.  I invited him to events with my friends and their significant others and he never went or reciprocated with his friends.  He would not even give up one Friday night out of the month with his co-workers so that we could spend time together.  He couldn’t do that and it made me mad.

Saying the only time you can spend time with me all week is a Sunday dinner because  you just had to go to your friends  football party in the afternoon or you fit time in with me for five hours on a Saturday because of you had to go see a hockey game with your buddies (the five hours was all the time that we would see each other that week). This was one of the frustrating issues for me because I am a quality time person and I was snot nearly getting enough quality time int his relationship.  I was the back burner or show off girl.  I mean the following puts things in perspective: W were going out for a year never spent a whole weekend together.  This should have been a red flag for me.  I did bring up that I would like to see him more and he agreed but nothing on his end changed.

Communication: This is different for every couple but is something that can be so trivial can greatly impact a relationship. My recommendation is to talk, talk, and guess what talk even more to each other.  Talk about anything and everything.  Open communication is crucial for a relationship to succeed.  If only one party communicates than it will cause cracks within the relationship.

When something bothered me I would always bring it up to my ex me so I could get his thoughts on the issue.  Most times he would not communicate his feelings.  He would say that he is logical and analytical so that is why he did not need to be emotional or talk about certain things.  I would bring up things related to our time spent together, effort, prioritization, and intimacy and he hardly voiced his opinion.  Most times he would say that he was happy in ur relationship or that he had to defend himself over issues and I was not placing blame or attacking him, or he would use the logical/analytical excuse as a reason not to talk about things.  It was so frustrating and his lack of communication caused major rifts and problems in our relationship.

Time spent together: This is fuel that will help your relationship grow and flourish unless you are long distance.  We live a 40 minute drive apart and he rarely drove up to my town or spend the night at my place.  He would always  have an excuse about why he could not stay the night or drive up to my area to hang out.  I loved spending time with him and would drive to him just so that we could be together.  He drove to my area a few times (5 times in all the 10 months we were dating) but he never spent  the night.  I would see him, in person, for about 7 or less hours per week.  We were dating for 12 months and barely saw each other in person!

What I have learned from all of this…

We did not have enough quality time for our relationship survive.  I was tired of only visiting him for one day, if that, a week or for a few hours. I would always drive to his area all the time and it was not fair to me.  HE would make minimal effort with the commenting even after I talked to him about it.  It changed for like a week and then went back to the same old things.  I know people make sacrifices in relationships and make things work be he was not.  I mean we had no pictures together, he would never want to talk to me on the phone unless I called him (he hates the way his voice sounded which is a load of BS),  We did not spend the weekend

I think I covered everything and I feel like I wrote a book!  But, I had to get all of that off my chest and surprisingly it has helped me a lot!  I learned that I did not value myself and let my ex get away with behavior that I was not ok with.  Next time I will communicate more and if the guy chooses not to change or ignores what I say then I will dump him instead of putting forth more effort.  On the other hand I can  scale back my effort and contact to see if it the guy even notices or how he reacts. It know that sounds terrible but maybe it will show me how much the guy values my time, effort, and prioritizes me.  I should have done that with my ex

So guys and gals always make sure your relationship is up at the top of your priority list for it to stay strong and grow!  It is not right for one person to put more effort in to the relationship. For a relationship to fully work both parties need to dedicate time and effort to it, communicate with each other, see each other in person, not make excuses for their behavior, and make each other a priority when you get serious.

Conclusion

This is NOT men bashing because these issues happen with WOMEN and not just men.  Women can do the same things to their significant others as well.  These are just the problems that I experienced in this relationship.  It taught me a lot and realized that both people need to want to communicate with each other and work things our which did not happen when I brought up the issues that bothered me.

Hope all of the above helps some reader out there!  This is just my opinion and my experience form one of my relationships.  Every person experiences and interprets things differently.  SO basically take from this what you will.

TO help me truly get over the break up I think that I should heed the advice of the below phrase

 

I am important and deserved to be treated well and I should not expect anything less.  All of this falls back on self worth, self value, confidence, and self love.

Let me get this off my chest… Part 1

Apparently my blog posts have focused on certain themes lately which seem to be dating, breaking up, and my ex boyfriend.  So, I figured I would take one or two posts to lay my emotions out on the table in an effort to help me get over him and make peace with everything. Please bear with me because this is a bit long but I feel it is necessary.  Maybe I will even help somebody in the process.

My last break up hit me really hard and it has taken a long time to process and work through the feelings felt.  To be quite frank I am not over him and by this point in time it should be a thing of the past.  For some reason I miss him and memories we had in our relationship.  I know he has moved on because the day we broke up (New Years Eve morning btw) he completely cut contact with me.  I even attempted to wish him a Happy New Year and got no response.  That stung that after a year he just cut me out with no thought at all.  It is like he threw everything we had together, crumpled it up, and threw it in the trash. Talk about being hurt so much and I am still hurting which sucks.

The break up was difficult  for me and  broke my heart.  It hurt more than any other break I have had.  What hurt the most was when he admitted he would not fight for our relationship, he could not break up with me in person because it would hurt him too much to see my face ( he was being a pussy we together for a year and he could not even break up with me in person which I deserved), he said we thought differently, and that I hurt him more than anyone had in his life and he would not be able to get over this.

Short story  is that he was not a good communicator and I tried to work out things that were bothering me to his answers of that he is happy.  After the holidays I blew up at him because I just was frustrated and it wasn’t planned it just happened.  I told him I was sorry and he texted saying he wanted to try to resolve things with me.  Then the next morning I called him to work things out and he broke up with me.  It sucks and it felt like I was sucker punched in the gut and chest.  Basically we both got hurt and it is terrible.

That us how our relationship ended in one long phone call where he said he likes me a lot, a lot, a lot but wouldn’t fight for us because we think differently and that would cause problems in our future.  The thinking differently would cause “the ugly beast to rear its head” his exact wording which in my mind refers to his difficulty in communication and his inability to want to solve problems when issues would arrive in our  relationship.

My ex was not a bad guy and was a gentleman.  We did have to work on certain things in our relationship to help it become even stronger: communication (both of us), prioritization and effort (him), talking about emotions (him), talking about intimacy (me & him).  Those were most of the difficulties  we had and some of the things he would not budge on like communicating with me, and it caused tension.  For me priority and effort were big things that need to be present in order to make the relationship work.  He would not budge on certain things.  When I am the one doing all of the commuting in the relationship there is a problem.  That is one sided and problems can not be fixed that way.  But enough about the issues for now because I am going to focus on the positive characteristics her possessed and save the difficult spots for another post.

The good things that came out of my last relationship are qualities that I will look for in another man.  The positive qualities my ex had are fantastic and any woman should look for them int heir significant other.

Good Qualities in Significant Other

-When picking a woman up get out of the car and walk up to her door instead of texting her that you are outside

-Open the doors for you and others

-Always make sure she gets home safe

-Be selfless at times and do things that she is interested in even though you might dislike or it will be out of your comfort zone.

-Make her feel like she is a part of your life by introducing you to family and friends

-Initiate and plan dates throughout the relationship and not just in the beginning stages

-Be respectful to everyone

-Make an effort to meet and be interested in your partners their friends and family

-Be punctual on your dates and if you are running late have the courtesy to call

-Good morning texts and good night texts mean a lot

-Showing affection in public

-Forehead kisses are the best

-Keeping each other updated about your life is important and do it on the daily

-No secrets and I repeat no secrets unless you want everything to fall apart

-Honesty about everything even if it hurts.  This avoids tons of problems

-Cuddling on the couch while watching your favorite Netlix or TV show

-Be in contact with each other daily

-Be willing to support each other through thick and thin

-Show appreciation for each other every day and not just on special occasions

These are just some things that should be present in a successful relationship and positive qualities that good men should display.

Please bear with me because there will be more to come on this and it is Part 2 about issues that can cause the demise of a relationship even if one or both partners exhibit the qualities above.

What are some tips and tricks that helped you get over a break up?  Has there been a relationship that you have not been able to forget or get over?